You know those kids that throw outrageous tantrums and throw themselves on the ground kicking and throwing things and ripping things and going completely LOCO!!!! And it takes everything within you not to look because the child is out of control!!! And you feel either so sorry for the kids parents or you are wondering why can't that mom get her child under control!!!!!! YEAH I AM THE MOM.... AND BELLE IS THE LOCO CHILD.... hahah in Winco my daughter went BAZURK on the ground and everything!!! Yep.... I hope this stage doesn't last too long. But through her melt down for who knows what (almost a daily accurance now)... I just seem to love her more and more everyday!

Colorado 2011

So as everyone knows I went to Colorado March 30th- April 7 to take care of my sister Jenn's kids while she went to help her husband and sweet mother -n- law in Mexico. I was so nervous about the plane ride. Two kids by myself!!!! Hahah I was nervous. Anyways they did awesome. They cried maybe 5 minutes and I gave them suckers the whole way to Colorado. Hahah They never fell asleep until we landed in CO and they were in the stroller. My Dad picked us up and he woke Belle up and instantly she reached for him and kept hugging and kissing him. Cash on the other hand did not know what to expect. He starred at my Dad the entire hour drive home! He finally warmed up and was going to everyone. All the cousins were so excited to see each other. Elena and Belle of course stuck together the moment they saw each other. That night I went with my parents, Tanna, and Bill (tanna's friend) to dinner. Then I went back to Jenn's and got ready for the week. Jenn had to leave at 5 am and Lydia her youngest I think knew she was leaving cause she woke up every 30 minutes wanting her mom! Poor Jenn! She left and I woke up to 8 children!!!! Hahaha which I was so excited for. We had a big meeting and planned some awesome things to do...We decided to go fly a kite!!! It was perfect flying weather. We had so much fun and we had a picnic… well tried to have a picnic! It was so windy our food blew everywhere. The Alvarez kids had a bunch of crafts for us to do while the little kids were asleep. We painted these stain glass looking things! Of course we had a dance party, had a camp out with smore’s, sleepovers with the Jones ladies, made a tent, had a movie theater night, water fight, music viedos, and did some serious playing. I felt so bad for Belle she got so sick and was feeling awful the whole time.  My babysitting was cut short when Jenn called and told us some heart breaking news about her incredible mother n law. Jenn flew home the next day and got the kids packed up and everyone flew to Mexico. I went and stayed with my Mom. I ended up getting so sick. I could not even get out of bed. My sweet parents and brother took the kids while I was a lump for the rest of the trip. I could not believe how this trip turned out. I am so grateful again for this gospel because without it this trip would have been awful. I am so happy I was there to “hopefully” help. I also was so happy because my cousin Scotties soon to be wife got to go through the temple and through a complete miracle I felt good enough to go. My little niece Tae took the kids! Thank you Tae. This trip to Colorado I will definitely always remember.

When we got home sleep is all we wanted to do. The flowers in Forest Grove were popping!!! And Belle was so ready to play with her cat friend Stripers and the nieghbor kids picked me daffodils! Haha that was a welcome home!

Life is Beautiful

So much has already happened this year that I just don’t understand.
Is life just a waiting game until we reach the promise land?
How can people go through so much pain and sorrow?
Complete peace and happiness I just want to barrow.
Barrow for the ones, whose little ones have been lost,
For so many friends and neighbors who cannot pay the cost,
For two unshakable mothers who suffer pain untold,
And for people in fear and doubt that I just want to hold.


Life is beautiful, so I have been told…
I am waiting to be shaped into a better mold.
A mold that will make me understand our Father’s will.
Inside is a constant battle and feelings I want to conceal.
I can’t help but feel like I am not doing my part….
But somehow through all the turmoil I feel peace within my heart.
A calming peace, that surpasses sadness, pain, and understanding.
Through all these trials I have found my safe landing.


A safe landing which no burden can ever break.
Through trust and love in our Savior- confidence we can take.
Confidence that we will be taken care of….
Through times feel never ending- we will rise above!
From out of the storm there is a blue sky.
So remember through the down pour- in the Savior our faith must lie.
Life is beautiful, we don’t need to understand…
All we have to do is put our whole trust in our Fathers hand!

-ME-

This whole year so far so many sad things have happened to my family and people I love so much. I have found myself asking a lot of questions. But somehow these people that have been through so much have been the ones whohave taught me so much. I have come to realise the power of the Savior. and have learned that no matter wat hppens in our lives things will be ok w have to trust him. This last week I was in Colorado- It was hard. Not because of the 8 kids but for other reasons. I came back to Oregon with a greter appreciation for my Parents, family, and my Savior. This last couple of months I have an extremely hard time expressing how I have been feeling. I started typing and it came. So hopefully my peom makes since. I am so grateful to be a part of the Church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. Without it I would be so lost. I am so grateful for what I believe to be true.

-Wednesday March 30, 2011 I fly with Cash and Belle to Colorado to watch my sisters 6 kids while she goes to see her mother n law in Mexico. This was decided last minute!!! - I move 3 days after I get home - Today I am packing all my house and my bags and I am leaving!! CRAZZZZZZY.... WISH ME LUCK! haha

Spring Break 2011

This little boy kept kissing Cash!! hahaha oh!

Oh Spring break! Our sweet niece Afton sent Belle "Flat Stanley" it's a little guy she drew and Afton for her school had to send it to someone and they had to take Stanley around and show then their state. So Afton decided to send it to Belle. So this spring break she showed Stanley some of our favorite places! But first we started out this much needed break with a baby shower

for my good friend Cali! I met so many awesome people that I wish did not live two hours away. After the shower Makay, Cali, and Monk watched some basketball while Cash slept and Belle an I went for a walk to smell the flowers. Then we painted our nails and had treats. The next day we headed down to Grandma/pa Mullins house. We had a birthday party for Nate. Every birthday the Mullins have a tradition- They blind fold the birthday person and tap the present over their head and every says "heavy heavy hang over thy poor head what do you wish with a bump on your head!" haaaha then the birthday person guesses what the present is!! hahah it's hilarious! The Mullins have a lady living with them right now that I really loved getting to know. Her name is Teresa and she is wonderful. The next day we went to my favorite park Sarois park- I think thats how you spell it. But it's a huge castle! You can get so lost- because there is so many tunnels and holes it's crazy!!! I love it. Rhett and Belle were like best buddies they were doin everythin together... Rhett is such a fun uncle! Then we all went to Shriner Farms and looked at all the wild animals. That night Chloris told us to go on a date and we went to dinner and a movie. We haven't done that for forever! We went to see Mars needs Moms and holy cow I bawled!!!!! It was so sad but actually really good! Then we went and had Mexican food! Which I haven't had for months! We had so much fun. The next day we headed back home and stopped to see Herman the Sturgeon and all the waterfalls along the way. We were all so tired so we all went home and all went to bed. The next day we went to the ZOO! LOVE the zoo! We got to go to the mall and I finally found a outfit for Monkey's sisters wedding on the 9th. We palyed on the rides and Monkey had his first cinnabon!!! DELICIOUS! Last night we were all for some reason going crazy so we got in the car to see where we would and up.... and we ended up at the BEACH! Cannon Beach. It was outof the world beautiful. It was s cold and Monkey had no jacket so her wore one of mine hahahah he wasn't to happy about it! But I thought he wore it well. I was in heaven! We played for so long and the water wasn't even that cold! What a way to end Spring break... It was just good. Well Monkey has April left of school and he is done for 4 months!

So bring on April- This year has been so crazy. It's been really interesting and very hard... This break was so good to get my mind off of a lot of things. So thank you Spring Break!