So I don't know if I should laugh or not but today... HAHAHA I was in my dress and heels trying to get into the car to go to church. oh and fyi it was snowing like crazy so I decided to go to a spot that didn't have as much snow so I wouldn't get snow all in my shoes and I step in the snow and ................ FIIIINNG! hahahah feet over head right on my back! everything was shown to the world.. I mean everything! and I couldn't get up.... so I just layed there!!!!!!!! saying "Monkey?.... Monkey?!" no answer HAHAH oh goodness! I was covered in snow and I finally got strengh to get up and Monkey finally noticed and was like what the heck happened!? HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I am so sore and a little worried about the fall but I just think it's funny cause~ of course this would happen! hahahah Happy snow days don't trip!

If you are as sick of these updates as I am just say... Amen. Todays appointment oh gee, His dopler reading however you spell it... his umbilical cord blood flow (the placenta) was really low. It was a 4.2 and that made him in the 5th percentile. So they want me to go through the weekend and wait till monday to see if it gets worse or better. and if he doesn't seem like he is moving they will get him out son as possible. This is what happened with Belle, my placenta totally stopped working so they had to take her out 37 weeks which the baby is almost 37 weeks like 2 days. So I called the doctor and told him I don't feel comfortable with his decision and I don't want to wait to see if my baby gets worse or wait for him not to move... I could wait if it got better but not sure about the other. The doctor talked to me forever and he said it is better for the baby to stay as long in my body then to take the chance that he might not be ok when he is out. So this is going to be a long weekend but Monday is sooner then I think and hopefully he will be doing better or the doctor will just feel like he will be ok to take him out. Anyways sorry for everyone who is sick of reading about this mess. I just don't understand why every appointment has to get worse.. But I am glad someone knows what is going on.

Granddad!

I can't even believe our family friend Susan had this picture andsent it to me. This is my Granddad and I miss him like crazy! I am so excited that I have a picture of him and I together. He was the most amazing man- he cared for everyone and everyone just loved him!

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all things acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
- Proverbs 3: 5-6 -

I got the best reminder at my door today (this scripture and some cinnamon rolls)... I swear people are amazing and I know I get answers to my prayers through other people! Thanks Jill! I am for sure framing that one.

and

Thank you Todd and Martha- for just stopping by to see how we were (with ice cream!) Ha you guys are so much fun and seriously made me laugh all night!! I love you guys!

(I thought I wasn't going to talk about this baby anymore but I found myself not beingable to talk about it to everyone cause I am an emotionally pregnant lady so I have decided to write so people can read and don't have to talk to a crazy lady)

Ok so my doctors appointment didn't go so well today... And I decided I have learned so many things this week...

1. Faith is a crazy amazng thing...
I have been praying and praying that our baby would just come so all this crazy would finally come to an end... And he has not come! Even though there has been every reason for him to come! I have been so confused because why wouldn't Heavenly Father answer my prayers?? or instead of just saying hey your baby looks great there always is something that scares me to death happens at my doctors appointments. like, my water breaks and I have contractions and all it is, is my body may have gotten some bacteria in it and my body tried to get rid of it by leaking and contractions or today he wouldn't breathe with his lungs and I had to be put on a stess test... So after hours of frustration and praying I felt so at peace... Heavenly Father knows what is going on. Maybe rather than answering my prayers he knows our baby might not be okay coming out now... I don't know but he does, and that has made me just stop freaking out and just relax and put this whole thing into his hands.

2. People are amazing
I couldn't talk to anyone after my appointment today- The only person I talked to was my mom. The next thing I know Emma my cousin is at my door with a special delivery from my Sister Jaclyn and her husband Blake. They wanted me to relax so they bought us dinner!! Chinese which is my absolute favorite this pregnancy! wow... I can't even explain how grateful and just how loved I feel. Thank you guys!!! It was so unnecessary but it made me feel so good that I have people that are always there!!! ALWAYS!! thank you Jaclyn and Blake for doing that... you'll never know how much that meant, not just for the meal but just knowing you were here when you couldn't actually be here with us! I love both of you.

3. I married the perfect person for me
I don't know how he has been able to be a rock like he has. He has dropped everything for me and this whole situation... I am so blessed to have him! Marrying him was the best decision I have ever made

Belle!

So Monkey gave Belle a bath and got her ready for bed... HAHA when they came out of her room Belle looked like this! OH HELLO DONALD TRUMP! I could not stop laughing! You can tell Monkey doesn't comb her hair a lot! We were laughing so hard!

Then she got into her new jammies (not the owl ones... they were out) But these ones were way cute for only 3.74$

She has the most hialrious personality! She always is making me laugh and doesn't ever want to take a picture! haha Maybe when I take a million of the new baby she might want to take one again.

CHUCKY!!! HAHAHA she is definatley my daughter!

Life would not be the same wihout Belle! She makes everyday so amazing! My favorite thing that she does lately is when I am sad or if I happen to cry or something (I am pregnant) She comes up to me pats my face and just rests her head on mine stroking my hair! What an amazing little girl! I love you Belle! Thank you for helping mommy!

Spotlight

So I just had to take a minute and thank some people....
(story first)
Yesterday was well lets say not a very good day. I had that pain again the night before and this time it was awful- I can't even explain it but it lasted 5 hours and ahhhh anyway I called the doctor the next morning and I was like something is not right... I explained what was going on so he rushed me into the doctors office to check me out. they took my blood pressure and it was in the 150's and I am suppose to be like 130 something... so they drew my blood and ran some tests. Then Hillary my ultrasound lady came in and did another ultrasound and the baby looked good until she got to the blood flow to the baby, and his reading was 3.2 which he suppose to be at 5.5 or 6 and she was like ummm I bet the doctors are going to want to take him out today! LABOR... TODAY... I freaked! I was like what.... so I start getting all nervous and anxiety cause I thought something was wrong with me not the baby! Then she did another reading and he all of a sudden fine..his reading bumped up to a 5.2 which she felt much better about. So then she found that the amniotic fluid was a bit low. OH stress me out,will ya! Well the good part is he measured so good h is 6 pounds 5oz! and I was so happy. So long story short the doctor said the baby looks good and the pain your having maybe is a very bad pulled ligament, he didn't really know but he said for the baby lets keep him in and I just need to basically deal with the pain. Okay then! I was alright with it cause I just wanted the baby to be ok... but I didn't agree with the ligament thing- you would think if it's that it would hurt all the time and not just once in a while and stop all of a sudden but whatever, Doc knows best.

So I get home an I am just so besides myself.. haha like this thing is like playing games with me... up, down, up, down! I was so frustrated, worried, tired, emotional, the whole bit. I just went and layed down and tried to sleep...

Here is the reason I wrote all this, First so I can remember all that has happened and secondly I wanted to thank some people:

Jill my cousin- The moment I heard I had to go to the doctor and maybe be induced I called her and she was ready to take Belle all night, she liked dropped everything to wait on me! After I was sent home she still was wanting to take Belle so I could sleep. Thank you so much Jill I was so relieved I had someone who would just be there!

My mom- endless support and calls! while I was in the doctors ofice waiting to hear if I would be induced or not She had a flight ready to buy and her bags packed and already called Jill to come get her at the airport... and I had no idea!

My Dad- for his prayers and helping my mom get the flight and everything ready

My sister Tanna and her freind Dan- I was sleeping and a bit later Monkey came in with a bag and a card. It was a bag of doughnuts and a card from Tanna who lives in Colorado!! Tanna called Dan who lives by me and he went insistantly (I had only been home 30 minutes) and picked those things up and dropped them off... I think he left work to do it! Like seriously so awesome and so kind!Thank you guys!

Jimmy- thank you for coming over so quick to help Monkey give me a blessing, that meant a lot!

Monkey- thank you for jetting home from school when you found out to take me to the doc!and for taking Belle and for that night when he got home from school he bought Chinese food home so I wouldn't have to cook and he knows I love it! And he brought me Sleeping Beauty cause I have been wanting to watch it! he amazes me so much... he is just as worried and stressed as I am but he makes sure I am ok... I married the most amazing person in the entire world! I love you Monk

Everyone is so wonderful and this whole thing has been hard but it has been so much easier with people like this!!! Thank you guys so much!!

8 months!

I am a lot bigger this time around!!!

Number 2!! Happy Anniversary

Well I am a little late on this but Monkey and I had our 2nd anniversary on December 29, 2009! We had such a great day....

We took Belle to see the temple and she was loving it!

and we took her to our dream house!!! in the summer ohhh it is beautiful there is a fountain in the front and trees everywhere and flowers- it's so amazing!! one day! I love the little guest house on the side!!! I wish you could see it in the summer!

Then we came home and played and listened to music! do you think she loves her pony!? Then that night after Belle went to bed we had a chinese dinner on the floor and watched movie and had fondue and fruit... we opened presents and it was so much fun!!! #2 awesome!!! I love you Monk thank you for being my one!!!

One year check up!

So my little baby isn't so baby anymore......

She is everywhere!!! I went to the doctor yesterday for her one year check up even though she is 14months... But any way she weighs- 20pounds and her height is- 31inches!! she is tiny but really tall , long legs is a good thing! Dr. Jones says!!! hahaha

Belle Loves....

-To play with stuffed animals she has one wherever she goes

- blankets!!! if one is on the ground he will go lay on it and pat it!!

- sippy cups! she doens't use a binky or a bottle

- to call me Mamie not Mommy! She will be in her crib yelling Mamie Mamie Mamie

- to be chased.. she chasing us now and it's hilarious she falls about 50 times

- to put clothes, blankets, anything over her face and walk around

- getting her way! holy cow she can throw a fit

- to eat, this girl can out eat me and that is sayin something

- oatmeal or top ramen noodles, don't ask me

- books always is handing me them so we can read

-music, she is a dancing machine

- to talk in her own crazy way da dee doo da dat hot hot hot

- her dad anytime he comes home "HHHHHHHHHIIII DADDY!"

- folding her arms and trying to close her eyes for the prayer, she always starts clapping that she did it

- wheres the temple she will walk over to the picture of the temple and say ooooooooo

- finding baby.. I will ask her where is baby? and she will come and pat my tummy and say baby and kis my tummy hahaha

I can't believe how fast this last year has been (14 months)! I get sad thinking that this year might go as fast! I love spending every minute with her! besides when she slaps me in the face!! hahah I still love it! a couple more weeks with just her and she won't be the only child anymore!! hopefully this goes well!

My last update of this mess!

Ok so I decided this is my last update on my doctor appointments and ultrasounds, cause one day they are good and the next nothin... So anyways this last ultrasound the doctors were really confused because our baby didn't grow at all this last week- he is still measuring good but just no progress. They are having me come in twice a week for a really close check on our baby because no growth is a big sign of trisomy 18. so if any signs are bad they will take him out and if he is growing then they are planning on inducing me for sure a week early on February 14th. So this is the last one till mr. stressful (just kidding) is induced! I know everything will be just fine, I am just so happy he is still a good size of 5 pounds! lets just pray he keeps growing and trisomy 18 doesn't happen.... Well next update will be sometime in February when he arrives!!!!!

Christmas morning!

Luke cracks me up in this video!!!! hahahah and I love watching Belle hahah howshe says hi to the cup cake or whatever that is!!!I love Christmas, especially with Belle!

Christmas in Colorado!!!

Before we headed to Colorado I tried to take pictures of Belle.... oh dear it was not working... out of 50, 2 kind of worked! she looked way cute!

We arrived at my parents house and it was picture perfect!! my mom's ouse is my favorite place to be

my beautiful mother and Belle!

We all were dancing to music andBelle was under the stereo toally bouncing up and down!! hahah

Santa came to visit Belle aka Luke...

and she freaked hahah but she loved him by the end of the visit

Chrsitmas Eve everyone in my family was there except for Natalie and her family... we wre all so sad they couldn't come . then out of the blue a santa comes to the back of Garrett's house and came in and was talking to all the kids and got my parents on his lap and we were all like who in the world is this guy.. anyways after a while the Santa asked do you guys believe in miracles?? and he told us all to look one way and it was Natalie and all her kids!! Brandon her husband was the santa!!! everyone started screaming or crying!

this was the best moment my dad with brandon... just balling!

Our sisters pictures!!

family pics!

Garrett and Stacey's house was beautiful and the food was amazing!!!

our program... luke did amazing singing oh holy night

afton drew Belle's name and she go Belle the cutest jacket and skirt!! thank you afton

belle was in love with my brother Mike

monkey said he is so ready for our baby now!!

Luke and Tanna- we got home from the Christmas eve dinner and everyone who stayed at my mom's house opened our christmas pajamas

Jaclyn and Blake

Dad and Mom!!

MONK AND ME!!

Bele's pj's!! fairies!!

she loved them and took off so no one could have them!!

WORD!!!!

bELLE 's presents!

Christmas morning....

and Christmas breakfast!

Christmas Day everyone came over and it was a full house of people and food!!! my kind of day!

Fiesta at Tiger and Allison's house!!! This was ssoooo fun and thank you Gabbie for watching Belle!

The Jones Family!!

Lino and I!

you better believe it!!! Jones style baby!

it was so fun watching my mom!!! hahahah she got into it!!! it was so hilarious!!! go mom!!

Alisa, Sara, and Martha Cardon!!!!

By the time our amazing trip was over we all felt like this!!! I miss my family already!!! We drove back home with Blake and Jaclyn- I love those two!!! Thank you guys for taking us! Now we are back in the Burg and just waiting for our little guy to come!