(I thought I wasn't going to talk about this baby anymore but I found myself not beingable to talk about it to everyone cause I am an emotionally pregnant lady so I have decided to write so people can read and don't have to talk to a crazy lady)
Ok so my doctors appointment didn't go so well today... And I decided I have learned so many things this week...
1. Faith is a crazy amazng thing...
I have been praying and praying that our baby would just come so all this crazy would finally come to an end... And he has not come! Even though there has been every reason for him to come! I have been so confused because why wouldn't Heavenly Father answer my prayers?? or instead of just saying hey your baby looks great there always is something that scares me to death happens at my doctors appointments. like, my water breaks and I have contractions and all it is, is my body may have gotten some bacteria in it and my body tried to get rid of it by leaking and contractions or today he wouldn't breathe with his lungs and I had to be put on a stess test... So after hours of frustration and praying I felt so at peace... Heavenly Father knows what is going on. Maybe rather than answering my prayers he knows our baby might not be okay coming out now... I don't know but he does, and that has made me just stop freaking out and just relax and put this whole thing into his hands.
2. People are amazing
I couldn't talk to anyone after my appointment today- The only person I talked to was my mom. The next thing I know Emma my cousin is at my door with a special delivery from my Sister Jaclyn and her husband Blake. They wanted me to relax so they bought us dinner!! Chinese which is my absolute favorite this pregnancy! wow... I can't even explain how grateful and just how loved I feel. Thank you guys!!! It was so unnecessary but it made me feel so good that I have people that are always there!!! ALWAYS!! thank you Jaclyn and Blake for doing that... you'll never know how much that meant, not just for the meal but just knowing you were here when you couldn't actually be here with us! I love both of you.
3. I married the perfect person for me
I don't know how he has been able to be a rock like he has. He has dropped everything for me and this whole situation... I am so blessed to have him! Marrying him was the best decision I have ever made
2 comments:
Every time I read your blog, my heart goes out to you and your little family. Faith is a crazy/amazing thing. I'm not gonna lie, when things are not going my way, I get upset. There is always that initial feeling of stress and being emotionally upset. Just like you said, with prayer and faith we can have a feeling of peace in our hearts. I have said in the past about life's stresses, "Heavenly Father just likes to see me on the edge of my seat." A friend replied, "I think he just wants to see how much faith you have." I really do hope everything turns out for the best. :)
Zazzle. I love you and don't worry I'll be on standby til the end of time...come what may, I'll love you til my dying day!
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