SUPRISE!!! This is long!!!

April 2009-So We thought we might be pregnant.... I totally missed my girl monthly and that never happens! So Monkey and I got really excited and sadly we weren't. So days go by and I keep thinking that I thought I was pregnant and I kept feeling that I knew someone was up there waiting to come down. I am so anxious and excited... I had a crazy panic attack which I have never done before...


May 2009- We tried to have a baby and yet we took a pregnacy test and we weren't pregnant. I hate that. honestly seeing that you aren't pregnant when you want to so bad, is the worst feeling for me. I got really sad... I ended up reading the best scripture in 3Nephi that helped me. I realised I need to just have faith and wait. But I know there is next month.. if we are we are planning on not telling our families. I am going to walk in for christmas 7 months pregnant! my mom will flip. i hope i am~ I just feel like I will be having a baby in February 2010!!

June 2009- So maybe I might be pregant!! I am taking a test this Friday June 12th. My mom sent me 20$ in the mail because she is so sweet and wanted to buy us a fan! But I used it to buy First Response pregnancy test! Monkey has no idea that I am taking the test on Friday or that I even bought one. I am hoping that I will be able to give him a positive pregnacy test for Fathers day! I have prayed all month and I know if I am I know who to thank!

June 10th- I am so excited to take the test! I want to today!!!! And Monkey has no idea!!!!!!!!


June 12th early morning 5:30 (Belle woke up)- I couldn't sleep like all night... I was soo excited! So finally the time came and I took the test ... and I am not pregnant! Big NO... I maybe should learn from last time that these things take time. I am not suppose to start till next week but I took the test anyways... With Belle I ended up taking 4 different test 3 no's and 1 yes! The doctor last time told me I wasn't pregnant so maybe I should learn from last time to wait! I get so excited though. I would take this test as ok I am not pregnant but I am sick like a lot... I always fill like I'm going to throw up, I am so tired, I get dizzy, I get head aches a lot... I don't know if thats normal, I have this weird pain in my stomach, smells oh dear make me want to pass out (which is weird with Belle that was like a month into pregnancy that got bad), and I am definately moody!!! Last night Monkey asked me ..."man what the heck is wrong with your hormones?!" Oh dear! all this has been going on for about 3 weeks now! So I still have hope... I don't mean to get churchy but I know... I know! Too many things have happened for me to bag it! So I am going to keep believing!! Just like if I asked Luke what to do thats what he would tell me.... BELIEVE!
June 15, 2009 -So I haven't started and I am getting so excited! So I am planning on taking yet another test weds and Monkey still has no idea!!!

June 16, 2009-I took another test just cause it's a dollar- and it was positive!!! I am going to The Doctor this afternoon and Monkey still has no idea!!!! Oh this morning like 5:30 am Belle woke up and I just was like oh I'll take it and when I saw that it was positive.... I started just crying I was so excited and happy and relieved!!!! Oh I am so am so grateful!! I know that I had a lot of help!! I am so blessed.. Prays are answered!!! Thats for sure!

So I am back from the Doctor and I AM PREGNANT!!! Oh when the doctor told me I almost fainted!!! I started yelling yes yes yes!!! I was pretty loud!! I am so excited! I have no idea how I am going to keep this from Monkey till Sunday... And I hope I can keep this a secret from my family till Christmas! Who knows! I decided to tell Jaclyn and Natalie my sisters so they won't pressure me into going to Colorado!!! and Meredith and Jill my cousins and a couple of my friends that live here in Rexburg with me just in case I need help. What an amazing thing this is.. I wish I could describe how I am feeling right now.. I am more grateful than anything! I wonder what it will be a boy or a girl? If a girl I love the names: Paige Rhiannon, Star Rhiannon, Boe Rhiannon, or Lexi Rae! Boy: Cash Robert, Oliver Tate (call him Tate), or Garrett Michael! I think my sister Natalie if she ever has another boy wants Garrett Michael... or Stacey if she has a boy... so that might be out! We will see! My due date is February 25, 2010!

June 19,2009- I am grouchy and dizzy haha I need to be happy! oh and I almost told Monkey tonight about the baby.... 4 more days I can tell him!!!

June 21,2009 Happy father's day! I totally kept it secret!!! It was so worth the wait. I took Monkey on a scavengers hunt of all our "firsts!" First kiss, first date, etc. I took him to the hospital and he found the clue and it had the note from the doctor that I was pregnant! I loved his reaction!

Oh everytime I watch this... I can't even explain it!

June 23, 2009-So I am 5 weeks and I am so happy because I only get sick sometimes! Last time oh dear... not a pretty sight! So Monkey and I decided that we are going to tell our families that we are having a baby after we find out if it's a boy or girl... I don't think either of us could wait till Christmas! Maybe, we will see!

June 27, 2009-Well that secret didn't last long.... I told some people and it kept getting spread so we thought we would tell our parents before someone else did!!! So Saturday we were at our Cardon Family Reunion and Monkey was saying the blessing on the food and haha at the end he was like please bless the baby inside Mamie that he or she will grow strong... we all looked at my Mom and Dad who were crying!!! Monkey told his parents last night!! They were so excited!! hahah It was a good suprise...... SO everyone knows and we are all so happy!