Monkeys

I have been at a loss of things to say lately.... There have been so many different emotions my whole family have been feeling and I don't really know where to begin...


A tragedy happened in our family a couple days ago that has really tested everyones faith.... My heart aches for some members in my family... Honestly I don't know if I could handle what happened. My sweet cousins Doug and Sara have had to deal with what I think is lifes hardest trial. I am shocked and amazed of how they have dealt with this.... All I have heard is how they KNOW it is going to be ok... How they KNOW they will see their baby again. How they KNOW that this gospel and their Heavenly Father is with them. All I have heard is that they are putting all their trust in Heavenly Father. I have asked myself all week if I could do the same. Would I put ALL my trust in the Lord if that happened?

Our next emotion we have dealt with is completely the opposite....pure joy... my sister Jaclyn brought little Bret Nikson Bishop into the world the same day everyone had to say goodbye to sweet little Luke... January 22. 2011. I was just, well if you know me you could probably guess how I was yesterday.... Questions filled my mind. WHY?? why do some have to go through such pain? and why do others get such joy? Why does awful things have to happen....

I realised that I had no idea.... But I believe that we- as Doug and Sara have done- is we have to KNOW that Heavenly Father knows whats going on. We have to put full trust in him. And know that we will feel peace. I am so proud to be part of a family that believes and actually acts this way. My cousin MacKenzie wrote a peom that I am going to share (I really hope she doesn't care that I took it).

HOPE THROUGH THE CLIMB
(For Mom & Dad)
Hope is direction, a map for the soul
It's carrying on vaguely knowing the goal
And if ever dismayed by that steepening slope
We must dig in our heels and never lose hope

For no matter how long or how taxing the time
The Lord will allow us to outlive the climb
If we fall in defeat, want to lay down and rest
He'll show us new light on some far distant crest

And whisper, "If only you knew how I care
In making you strong from the burdens you bear
It's only for now, there's a great end in sight
A dawn is awaiting the dark, gloomy night."

So whenever ahead, there appears a new slope
We must dig in our heels and never lose hope
And continue to climb without plans to descend
And someday we'll come to that glorious end.

-MacKenzie-

This poem says it so perfectly... brings me so much comfort and peace. I sometimes read it when I feel like things won't get better or I start to question. It reminds me that we have to go on- no matter how long and how hard the trial is and "someday we'll come to that glorious end!"



This is little Nikson... When I saw this picture I just started bawling... He is so perfect and so beautiful and I kept thinking of Little Luke who is now with our Heavenly Father and I couldn't help but feel how these two must have met before Nikson came down... and maybe they hugged each other and just wanted everyone to be at peace. I don't know but I sure felt peace when I look at this guys little face. There is a bigger picture to this life and we can find it if we will only look. Sara and Doug we love you guys so much and pray for you everyday. Thank you guys for already teaching everyone whats most important.