Always sick...

I have to say I am missing so badly these two little happy faces... Last Thursday out of no where Belle spiked a temp of 103.2 and it went all down hill from there. Before becoming a Mom I never knew in my wildest dreams that I would have thought I could worry and care about someone so much. Belle could not break her fever for 3 days.. then Sunday she did a bit then something went wrong. She spiked again in fever and coughed straight most of Saturday and all of Sunday. I have never in my life heard something that bad. She literally had 2 second breaks in between. Saturday night was awful for her... no relief no matter what I tried... which was everything. I found myself trying so hard not to completely loose my emotions completely... didn't happen... I couldn't stop crying every time I left her room. Saturday night the only way she got a bit of relief was me sitting straight up and her laying on my shoulder. I have never prayed so hard in my life. I thought something terrible was going to happen to Belle. Sunday I took her to the ER cause she was so much worse. She just laid there lifeless basically. They tried everything and sent us home with a bunch of medicine and thinking she had pneumonia. I brought her back and still she seemed to get worse... I had no clue what else the ER doctors could do but I headed back. They tried more things and she wasn't getting enough oxygen. She was just crying and screaming! I have never felt so useless and scared in my life. Finally the doctor said he was going to admit Belle into the hospital if she didn't improve fast. I prayed my heart out... not the hospital. I honestly could not handle seeing her in the hospital after everything that has happen. Honestly out of the blue while breathing in some saline solution she started smiling and talking about the Disney princesses. Her oxygen was in the 90's and she didn't have to go to the hospital. We stayed for 3 hours and got to go home! We got into bed and she started coughing again.... I sobbed. She could not fall asleep... just crying and crying, Monkey tried to hold her to sleep on him... nothing was helping... I finally realized we couldn't do anything... So we just said a pray and put her in his hands! I fell asleep that night saying over and over in my head that she's going to be okay! Everyone in the house finally fell asleep and today Belle is so much better!! She hardly coughed, she slept till noon, slept again from 3-6pm, ate, and now is asleep for the night! I am overly grateful right now! Even though Cash has been coughing all day and has a temp... and threw up and has ear infections in both ears (found out at the doc today...) I am still so grateful! Honest I know Heavenly Father is the only reason she is okay right now! I am so grateful that I know that he lives. I am so looking forward to smiles and laughing again!! And a special thanks to all my friends- Seriously I don't even know how they found out (probably calling people to help give a blessing to Belle)... but I had cookies at my door, dinner brought Sunday night, a loaf of homemade bread, texts, and calls! And I never called one person. I seriously have the most caring selfless friends! Thank you!