Valentines

Valentines is a HUGE deal in my house! Monkey and I both love it!! Don't get me wrong we love each other everyday of our lives but February 14th is a day where we save up to shower each other with pure cheesy love! We order take out... which doesn't happen much! We spend the night as romantic as we can... which means food, fun, and a film! Hhaha the kids are sleeping so no going out! We love it though! Our last couple Valentines we have tried to get creative! Last year Monkey created a Ball ... A dance where got all dressed up like I have always wanted to and we pretended we were some where fancy at an elegant ball! Ridiculous but pure wonderful!! I love all our dates... but tonight we get to save a little mula and do something more special! I seriously have married so high above me! Monkey is my best friend- I have so much fun with him. We laugh and talk constantly. Sometimes when he is studying I catch myself talking way too much... He just smiles... puts his papers down and just talks back!! until finally I realize what I am doing and leave... and then wish I was with him. Monkey is my absolute everything... friend, counselor, therapist, confidant, care taker, someone I admire, look up to, the man of my dreams! I am so grateful I said yes! I am so grateful we will be together for ETERNITY!! That is a longgggg time- Good thing I like em! I have been thinking a lot about when we were first married... hahah what a joke! I think we hated each other more than we liked each other! I remember even thinking of ways I could find to get out of being married! Haa we laugh about that and those days now! We are in our 5th year or marriage and each year seems so much better. We used to fight constantly about ridiculous things and stay mad forever... We used to yell and storm out of the room and threaten to have the other sleep on the couch! Hilarious now...How dumb could we be! Each year we have been together I find we don't really do that anymore. We aren't perfect but we are so much better.. instead of a fight four times a day it rarely ever happens! Monkey you seriously have taught me so much without even knowing it! I find the longer I am with you the more I want to make you happy! Like I love to buy things... you know that!! but knowing how much it bothers you to spend money I find my self putting EVERYTHING back haha! I have realized how important being their for each other really is. I have realized that even though we don't have a perfect marriage we can grow and become better together! The word together use to smoother me haha remember! I use to want everything my way... I made the decisions, I called the shots, and I always finished the fight! Now as cheesy as this is it excites me to know I have someone to share everything with. We don't always agree but in the end  everything is so much better than if I had it my way, because it's become our way!. I am excited for each year I have with you Monkey! I can't even imagine how each year could get better than now! Happy Valentines!

PS- excuse the song today!!! It is our song!! haha just for today! I really didn't have to write anything about Monkey this song says how I feel! I love you Monk

"When I Look At You"

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights are so long

'cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light
To break up the dark
That's when I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home any more
That's when I
I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

Yeah when my world is falling apart
When there's no light
To break up the dark
That's when I
I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home any more
That's when I
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need
Every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful
Yeah yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home any more
That's when I
I look at you

I look at you
Yeah
Whoa-oh
You appear just like a dream to me