UPDATE of LIFE...

So what on earth you ask??? Life has been CrAzY lately. I will give an update off all us...

Belle- Hahahah what do I say about Belle? This last year has been so hard for her. She has been very sick and has gone to specialist. And I think after medicine, treatments, weeks on end of sickness, medicine, doctors, tests, and scoping her insides the doctors have maybe found a solution... First off she had serious issues with cigarette  smokes... which our home was constantly filled with from neighbors. So our doctor recommended we should move. So we did... we now live on the other side of town. Secondly after putting Belle under and scoping her insides they found that her esophagus was not pink and healthy it was more grey and mucusy . They told me they could tell she had been sick for a long time. So her esophagus is inflamed and needs to heal. So smoke plus inflamed equals all of the ER visits from not breathing. The took cultures and found out Belle has Fat growing in her esophagus. Normal fat level is like 5% and she had 20-25% in hers. So blessing in disguise that she was constantly sick otherwise it could have got way worse and fatal. So I will take the sickness any day. So her esophagus has to heal. They found that Belle has been aspirating from not being able to swallow liquids well. The liquids go straight to her lungs. So she has to drink honey thick liquids... water, milk, everything honey thick consistency. Belle hates it and gags most the time. But she has to stay hydrated or she has to get tubes put in her stomach. So we push liquids hard. So I am so grateful that hopefully by getting her esophagus healed she will be fine! We will see!

Other then that she is very hilarious. She is so smart and so ready to go to school. She wants to go so bad. Belle has had a hard time being sassy... I mean sassy. Like she rolls her eyes at me all day long and lately she has been saying, "Whatever Mom!" She is 4! She has another problem with not listening to a single thing I say!! Hahah it gets tricky at times. I think Belle needs to be on stage and perform in a serious drama! She is so animated and needs to be a damsel in distress... That would make her dreams come true! She told me today the reason she doesn't listen to me is because she hasn't had dreams about Starla!!!!! Belle explained that Starla was a fairy that was born from a raindrop and flew around sprinkling pixie dust on kids that make bad dreams go away! And it's making her mad so she won''t listen. Belle is into anything GIRLY! She is in love with her beanie babies Marshmallow (cat), Raspberry (rabbit), and her big american girl doll Paige, and my favorite she loves Toby. Toby is a teddy bear Paige got when she had meningitis in the hospital. Belle was so upset that Paige had to stay in the hospital she took the teddy bear and said she would take care of it till Paige could. She keeps Toby so safe and loves that bear. She also has to sleep with her pink SOFT blanket, then my patch blanket, then her princess blanket on top.... and her pink poodle pillow pet. I have the most cute bed spread and I can't even use it because if Belle doesn't have that order then all heck breaks loose. Belle has the most sweet heart... If anyone is crying she cries! If Paige is crying she will stay by her side and sing to her till I come. She loves bagels and cream cheese... Plain... she would eat it every meal if she could. She loves apple juice and chocolate milk. She makes me laugh by the things she says.... She asked my friend yesterday, "If she was having her enjoyment!!!" Ohhh I love her! She is getting soo old! Belle is so good at being a big sister. She protects Paige and Cash like they were her own!!! I am so proud of her. I am so proud how  she has handle always being sick. She of course has cried a lot and missed a lot of fun things but she tries so hard to make the best of it! She is so strong and tough! I love her so dearly!

Cash- Oh Cash!!! He is for sure going through a stage! He is in the copy cat stage!! Anything Belle does guaranteed seconds later Cash will do it as well... including everything Belle does to get in trouble. He is a parrot... he repeats everything Belle says. Belle has a little echo and I have finally gotten to the point of just not answering him or asking him what I said!!! Cash was 100% potty trained and now 100% NOT potty trained!! He has decided he thinks it is funny to go in his pants! No matter how long and hard I try to get him back on track he will run and come back messy... so with Christmas coming, traveling, and me going to Colorado I decided I am slapping a diaper back on him till he really wants to do it himself. Cash is into eating allll day long ... well Belle too... well Paige too!!! Cash loves to make sure he tells me he loves me! He tells me all the time that he thinks I am beautiful or he says, "oh Mom you look BOOTIFUL!". He always wants me to lay with him. He wakes up at least once a night just so I can come put him back in bed. He is starting to cry every time I leave. He loves baths... I have a merMAN! He loves chicken nuggets! He loves marshmallows. And he loves veggies and hummus! Mostly the hummus! Cash can get me mad but he can get me unmad even faster. He is a doll! He talks so well and reminds me of a 5 year old! He sleeps on chocolate, his monkey pillow pet... then his SOFT cream blanket then his Buzz Lightyear blanket. He has to have his moon in the side of his pillow and his little soft cow blanket right next to his face so her can feel it with two fingers and hahah like suck on his tongue or something as he falls asleep! hahah this order is a must! Cash has learned all his letters and the sounds to them. He can count to 10. He has to learn and do what Belle does! To him he is as old as her! He is one smart boy! I love being with him. Especially one on one! He makes me feel so incredibly special! He has a gift of making people feel so good! I can't get enough of this kid... well until an hour till bed time! hahah just kidding. Cash and I went on a date the other day... an "everywhere day" like my Mom use to do with me. He got to choose everything we did. He chose to go to Sonic and have nuggets, apples, and a BLUE COCONUT slushy! He wanted to watch a football game. So we watched the army against the navy! He was so involved. Cash told me that one day he wants to tackle people too! We headed and he wanted candy canes and he wanted to feed the ducks. Which we didn't get to because a man told us that bread is not good for ducks. The man fed the ducks seeds and hollered, "Here duckduck duck duck duck!" And out of no where tons of ducks came and ate his seed. Cash was so amazed and he kept saying the rest of the duckduck duck duck duck! I had so much fun with him! He is my favorite person to go out with besides Monkey of course! He is such a sweetheart!

Miss Paige- Oh my bowl full of jelly! And pure happiness. Paige by far is my most serious baby! Belle and Cash laughed so quickly. Paige laughs but it's almost like she hasn't quite found her belt out and laugh laugh yet. She is all business... very serious! Paige is so amazed at the world around her. She stares and looks so concerned at everything. She has MAJOR stranger danger! Anyone who isn't Monkey, Belle, Cash, or I she will freak out, do a pouty lip , and bawl! Paige is a mommys girl. If I leave she cries! It's hard for me to leave if she isn't sleeping cause she will cry. She was the worst sleeper and now this girl can sleep. Paige is almost 6 months and she goes to bed like 6:30pm amd wakes up around 7am and goes back to sleep till like 10am. It is crazy! I love getting her she SMILES so huge I melt! She love to touch faces. She thinks baby dolls are fascinating! She loves to suck on everything, especially her fingers, apples, and pineapples. She loves blankets. She finally learned to roll from her back to her tummy like 3 days ago! Now she rolls all the time. It's hilarious seeing her try to move her rolly body over! She talks gibberish in this high precious little voice. She loves to be kissed on her cheeks! She loves to be held right against your face. Oh my heavens even talking about her makes me so happy. It makes me want to just go love her now! I love Paige! I am very protective over her! I'm in love with how she is and how much she just wants to be held close. I can't even explain how she has me.... NOT usual haha wrapped around her finger! She loves Belle and Cash... something about them makes her so excited and so happy. She loves being in her swing and having either one of them push her. She just laughs at them and smiles sooo big. Man I just love her!


Monkey- Don't ask me how he has even functioned lately... He has had hospital stuff with kids, moving, and finals all in the last 2 weeks! But through the madness he rocked his finals! He did so incredibly well! I stay stand at "awe" with him! He is so intelligent and determined to do his best. And he does it! I have no clue! He is getting so excited to start his final semester of classes Jan-April and he will start rotations. I can't believe it. You seriously have to be a genius to be in any kind of medical school. Monkey and his friends talk and I feel like they are speaking in another language. like this... "The celluar orbital nerual sensory of the neotalion underlining of the gland of unineptoroilish!" Hahaha ok not like that but it sounds like that! Anyways besides being totally stressed I am guessing he is now on Christmas break for like 3 weeks! He is ecstatic. The kids and I are as well... Belle hugged him and wouldn't let go for almost ten minutes when she understood he wasn't going to school for awhile. Other than school Monkey is super Dad! He loves being with his kids. He wrestles, plays, reads, laughs, jokes, chases, works, etc. with them. Every night since he has been home we do at home date nights. We can't get enough.. they mainly consist of creative food, games, movies, and talking till wayyyyy too late! He finds a way to make me feel so incredibly special everyday. I am so lucky!

Me- I am here! I am alive... lately I am not going to lie has been crazy, emotional, fast paced, dramatic, scary at times, stressful, hilarious, happy, and getting healthy it seems! We have been in our new house for about 16 days and already I can see the difference in Belle's face. Like she always seemed so pale and dark circles. Now she has a bit of color and lots more energy. I don't know but I can feel and see a difference. Which I don't think is a coincidence... So many people have prayed and fasted for her and I know we are being so blessed. And I know so many prayers have been answered. I feel like even though this has been a crazy long and emotional year with sickness and I am not sure if it's over yet but oddly I feel like it has been a blessing in disguise. If Belle wouldn't have gotten sick like she did, we wouldn't have pushed the doctors so hard, and it would have been something extremely serious instead of something that seems to be over time an easy fix. So I am HAPPY! Life is full of surprises.... Another surprise is I got called to be the Laurels adviser. I have loved being in Young Womens. I love the girls I am with. Anyways we are all doing great. We have 7 months left in Forest Grove and I am shocked about how fast time has gone. I am excited to see what year 2013 will bring.