I finally know whats going on with my hip.....

So miracle of all miracles there was a cancellation at OSHU and I was able to go in to the specialist today (thank you for all your prayers cause they were answered). My incredible mother n law came 2 hours to watch the kids while I went to check out my hip. Thank you so much Chloris, you have no idea how I felt knowing I had someone to count on when something unexpected happens. Thank you.

So I got to my appointment and I was so nervous. I felt like my heart was going to pop! The doctor came in and checked my MRI and me and she sat down and said, "Good news it is not Cancer... and I hate to be the one to give you the bad news but your hip is really messed up. You have extra bone growths, holes in your socket, the lump is how your muscle has grown, and you have a certain type of arthritis which is going to get much worse like there is no medication that can help this type of arthritis... And you need a full hip replacement."

I was stunned... My doctor said that she did not want me to get my hip replaced now she wants me to wait until my body can't take the pain anymore (years she was hoping... like in my 40's), then they will do the surgery to replace my hip.

I didn't understand why she didn't want to to have the surgery now and save myself from going through such pain for years. She used a USED CAR as an analogy. My body is like a used car she said. The more you fix it the sooner you are just going to have to get rid of it and just get a new car. So they longer I wait the longer I can have my used car....

I honestly have no clue what to think. All I can think is how am I going to react to this?!? I have decided to just live life like I don't have this problem.

You know I wonder why Heavenly Father allows sad things to happen in Peoples lives like; a child dying, a family member getting cancer, a parent dying, someone getting a terrible diease, not being able to have children, loved ones going through pain... etc... why? You know I don't know. But the thing that makes me feel at peace is I know Heavenly Father knows. I know that one day I will have a perfect body and I should be grateful I can walk. Or for other people that have worse problems then me... one day everything will be okay. Not only will it be okay but we will get to see loved ones again, sickness will be over, and pain will be gone! I know this life is short and thankfully I have the choice on how I am going to react. I just have to trust the Lord and know that even though I am going to have to go through pain that he is full aware of me and He won't leave me alone. I am so blessed to this gospel. I honestly don't know how people go through this life without it.