REDOUBLING

We are going on Day 7 of Belle's croup (at least it is just the cough now instead of being in bed for 4 days), Cash's runny nose/cold, and Paige's runny nose/cold... And I have to admit yesterday for Labor Day I was convinced after much praying that my kids would be all better ready to have a party... I got very discouraged and totally felt sorry for myself, because Belle woke up coughing worse than ever, Cash started coughing, and Paige had a runny nose.... When all the kids were down for their naps I vented my head off to Monkey... Man I feel bad for him. I said how I can't stand my house, I have been trapped in it for 5 straight days, I was alone with all weekend, My kids are mean to me... Belle was yealling all day like "MOM WHERE'S MY FOOD", "GET ME A POPSICLE MOM", "I WANT IT NOWWWW!" or just saying "NO" No joke.... for 3 days she has been like that and Cash of course does everything Belle does but more extreme... so he has been a bundle of joy!. Of course they would get in trouble but how much trouble or things can you take away from a child who is just sick in bed or a child who is just as tired and mad as you are?? My patience was gone and it has been gone for some time now.  I told Monkey how my life feels like it will never change... I told him to be honest I am a bit jealous how everyday he goes out learns and progresses and I am stuck in a sick never healthy home and I and EXPECTED TO DO SO! I feel awful how I even said this or felt like this but I told him I don't even feel like praying for help anymore because it doesn't seem like Heavenly Father wants us to get healthy and I am suppose to go through this. Poor Monkey he always gets the brunt of everything... Anyways after a very long "always me... selffish" speech I decided to study my scriptures for the day... and of course I open to this...

D&C 127: 2&4
2 And as for the ^aperils which I am called to pass through, they seem but a small thing to me, as the ^benvy and wrath of man have been my common lot all the days of my life; and for what cause it seems mysterious, unless I was ^cordained from before the foundation of the world for some good end, or bad, as you may choose to call it. Judge ye for yourselves. God ^dknoweth all these things, whether it be good or bad. But nevertheless, deep water is what I am wont to swim in. It all has become a second nature to me; and I feel, like Paul, to glory in ^etribulation; for to this day has the God of my fathers delivered me out of them all, and will deliver me from henceforth; for behold, and lo, I shall triumph over all my enemies, for the Lord God hath spoken it.

I read this scripture and felt my anger leave and just started to feel bad.... Joseph Smith went through so incredibly much more than I will ever have to go through, and yet he glories in tribulation. Are you kidding!? I honestly felt so bad about how selfish and ungrateful I have been feeling. Joseph Smith went through trials that lasted which seemed like forever and he still had faith that Heavenly Father would deliver him from them all. I only am dealing with sicknesses over and over but Heavenly Father has made my kids healthy each time. I started to feel very overwhelmed... like my trials are so small and I am not dealing with them very well.  How can I do this without going completely mad?!? Then of course I read this verse.... 

4 "... let your ^bdiligence, and your perseverance, and patience, and your works be redoubled, and you shall in nowise lose your reward, saith the Lord of Hosts. And if they ^cpersecute you, so persecuted they the prophets and righteous men that were before you. For all this there is a reward in heaven."

REDOUBLED oh dear..... Even though that makes me extremely tired thinking about REDOUBLING everything... I know that was an answer to prayer. As much as I don't like this saying Hang in there hahah I know that's what I got to do and do it with a good attitude... so we have been working on a lot of learning since we have been stuck inside and...

I am so excited... being a stay at home Mother these are the things that excite me....

Belle has learned all the sounds to the letters and is now sounding out words. She can read CAT, MAT, SAT, PAT, BAT and DAD, SAD, MAD, TAD, LAD, BAD! I am so thrilled we are starting to work on the "ot" words!

Cash has learned all the sounds of the letters and can look at BAT say BAAA AHHH TTTT.... He can't quite put it together but her is getting close. AND he now is going number one on the toilet which he calls "yellow"!!!!! So we use about 1 or 2 diapers a day! 

AND....

After a long talk about saying please and thank you or you get nothing, if you scream at Mom you get ignored, if you are whining you can whine in your room by yourself, or if you say "I WANT....." at all... you go straight to your room..... All day so far I have had the most polite children, that even went down for a nap without screaming or whining. Just... okay Mom!

That is progress! 

I am so happy for both of them. They are so extremely smart! I am so glad that even though I pray for my kids to stay healthy and I feel like my prayers are never answered... I AM WRONG... They are ALWAYS answered but in a very different way, just in a way that makes me want to grow and be better. That makes me feel that no matter what... my Heavenly Father is still aware of his very IMPERFECT daughter.