Day 21....

Wow! Is all I have got to say for this past week.... We spent another week at home because Belle got the croup again- fever and all! And poor Cash got it as well. Every night... almost all night long has been spent awake trying to console Cash and figure out how to keep this child breathing, running from room to room, and then feeding Paige in the middle of it. Also when Cash is sick the world is ending. I feel so bad for him, but man can that boy cry about everything... he bawled because I asked him to say Please- he just doesn't feel good! So it's been really interesting lately... Lucky for Monkey he somehow can sleep through it all or he would be so worthless during his classes.

Yesterday after praying who knows how many times and so many days to help Belle get better... Belle asked me, "Mom why doesn't Heavenly Father want me to get better?" I felt like crying!. I told her I don't know... but I do know that sometimes even though we pray really hard for something- sometimes Heavenly Father knows what is better for us and what is best for us right now for some reason is being sick. I told her that we had to just keep praying no matter how long it takes... Because we can show Heavenly Father we aren't giving up.

I wish so badly I knew all the answers... but I don't I am just grateful Heavenly Father knows what is going to happen in our future- so that puts my mind at ease,, even though I have moments or hours of pure giving up mode.

I have been listening to this song a lot lately and it helps me regain energy even when I feel like there is none left. Little dramatic!!! but when I don't have sleep.... well any sleep I get that way!

So tonight as my house is filled with onion and honey smells from home made cough syrup and home made onion chest remedy Jaclyn has told me to try, I am just happy to have each one of my sweet kids. Belle has shown extreme patience with her going on day 21 croup, and Cash has shown serious love for each person in our family (even if at times my face is covered with his snot!) and sweet little Paige even though she had a cold she is still so full of life and smiles and even laughing now! 

Monkey and I decided we focus a lot on negative things so we decided to put a "I am GRATEFUL for" sheet up on the wall and everyday when we wake up we all have to write down one thing we are grateful for...

Belle today was grateful for Rain

Cash was grateful for ... he said, "Cash"

Dad was grateful that we have more than enough water

I was grateful for the sunset and the suns rays poking through the clouds!

Belle said that these things showed that Heavenly Father loves us.... And I agree!