This picture wouldn't go on straight.... But anyways I am not the best cook but I was pretty excited when I made this and didn't burn it!!!! Yay for me!!! Anyways Monkey and I were in the mood for creamy soup and bread bowls and our budget was low hahaha so I had to make both... I was so happy it tasted pretty good!!! Maybe one day I will have food that tastes like my cousin Martha's!!!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Don't ask me!
This picture wouldn't go on straight.... But anyways I am not the best cook but I was pretty excited when I made this and didn't burn it!!!! Yay for me!!! Anyways Monkey and I were in the mood for creamy soup and bread bowls and our budget was low hahaha so I had to make both... I was so happy it tasted pretty good!!! Maybe one day I will have food that tastes like my cousin Martha's!!!!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Mondays Appointment
Well todays appointment didn't go like I thought....I went in thinking that this special ultrasound would be able to tell exactly if we had to worry about trisomy 18, it didn't go quite like that. I went in and we did a normal ultrasound just like we did the previous week, which I thought was weird! and just like last week the baby looked great! which I was a bit confused cause I was like we knew the baby was just as big a healthy last week as it is now and you told me then there might be something wrong! So anyways we proceed through the ultra sound and I am thinkning they are going to give me a 100% answer if yes our baby has it or no our baby does not. So finally at the end she said your baby looks fine but we can do this test where we get amnioctic fluid out of the placenta and test it so you can know for sure... I got so frustrated cause the Doctor couldn't tell me if our baby carried the diease. They explained the test to me and told me that it could cause a miscarriage............................. UMMMMM yeah right! I was not going to do that test. Then she explained how each month through the rest of my pregnancy they were going to do more ultrasounds and keep close track on how the baby grows. If the baby stops growing over these months then most likely has trisomy 18. I asked tons of questions... one was if the baby didn't have trisomy 18 could anything else be wrong??? She said mostly likely if this isn't the case something might be wrong with my placenta...it might stop working (like what happen with Belle), or there might be things wrong with the chromosomes... she listed a couple of things... Anyways I left feeling worse and the peaceful feeling I had... COMPLETELY GONE! had the biggest break down when I got back into the car, (I felt so bad for my mom and dad, my mom thought someone died and my dad thought I needed to go into a home for the crazy). I wish I hadn't because of the blessing I recieved.... I know everything will be well with our boy... I just hate having to go through each month praying that our baby keeps growing when I thought I would know today! I feel like it just prelonged everything! It is a very uneasy feeling but at the same time I know things will be ok! I am just grateful that our baby is ok this month, and I am going to try to keep that attitude till my baby comes!!! And I know he will be okay! So I am apologizing now if I act a bit worried or a bit weak here and there- it is hard just having having that nervous feeling everytime I go to the doctor. I am trying just not to worry cause honestly I know there isn't anything to worry about!! Belle was a huge scare too and she turned out perfect... no problems at all! And now that I have calmed down I thought, I bet the doctor today really felt like there was nothing wrong but had to tell me she didn't know for sure and we are just doing ultrasounds each month to be safe.... Who knows!!! maybe I am suppose to learn a little patience or some kind of lesson like that... But whatever happens like everyone has said, it will turn out how it is suppose to. Thank you everyone so much for your prayers and awesome thoughts you have given me!!! You all are such strengths to me and I know I can talk to any of you if I need to! EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE! I am so happy our baby looks good now! Faith is better than any doctors tests or fear!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Our big Scare...
(I am sharing this so I can always remember and I can keep everyone who wants updated.)
This last Thursday October 8, 2009 my doctor called and asked if I could go somewhere quiet where I could talk. I went into my room and she said, “well we got your blood work back … and you are positive for the disease called Edwards Disease which is also known has Trisomy 18. So the doctor told me not to worry cause she didn’t want me to freak out before I knew if our baby really had this disorder. She told me that I had to go to Boise to get a special ultrasound to check our baby. I tried not to cry on the phone but tears were just pouring down my face. I was just hoping that this disorder had nothing to do with death…which I found out a few minutes later that my worse nightmare might could totally happen.
I had no idea what this disease was so I looked it up on the internet and this is what I found… Trisomy 18 is a condition which is caused by a chromosomal defect. It occurs in about 1 out of every 3000 live births. The numbers increase significantly when early pregnancy losses are factored in that occur in the 2nd and 3rd trimesters of pregnancy. Unlike Down syndrome, which also is caused by a chromosomal defect, the developmental issues caused by Trisomy 18 are associated with medical complications that are more potentially life-threatening in the early months and years of life. 50% of babies who are carried to term will be stillborn, with baby boys having higher stillbirth rate than baby girls. At birth, intensive care admissions in Neonatal units are most common for infants with Trisomy 18. Again, baby boys will experience higher mortality rates in this neonatal period than baby girls, although those with higher birth weights do better across all categories. Some children will be able to be discharged from the hospital with home nursing support for their families. And although less than 10 percent survive to their first birthdays.
I honestly should not have read that cause I lost all control… Which I shouldn’t have, because I had no idea if my baby had it or not. So I freaked for a while and finally called my mom and told her. I decided that I needed to hear my moms voice. It helped a lot but after I spoke with her I was not able to speak to anyone. My wonderful family all called me minutes later and I couldn’t speak to anyone, all I could think about I that I might not have my little boy…. I couldn’t stay home because I was going crazy… so me and my denial I decided to go buy everything our baby needed when he was born. I bought pj’s, blankets, clothes, onesies, socks, etc. I am so grateful for Monkey he was crying because of the whole situation and completely freaked out cause I couldn’t control myself but he remind so patient and loving! I couldn’t have gotten through that night without him.
So we went to bed that night and I still couldn’t find peace… I fell asleep finally with the biggest headache. But woke up not crying as hard. The first thing that morning my doctor called again we were trying to set up an appointment to go to Boise. I told her I had to go to Utah on Sunday through Monday (Monkey had an interview with California’s Optometry school on Monday) and right away she called the office in Boise and got a doctor to go to Salt Lake Monday to do my appointment at 1:00pm. How blessed am I and relieved I was. But still I was scared out of my mind and to top it off Monkey wouldn’t be with me. My Mom called and told me that my dad and her were coming to Utah to be with me at my appointment. I can’t tell you how happy I felt when she told me that! Monkey’s family was just as wonderful they waned to go to Boise to be with us ad they wanted to buy us a hotel room so we could go somewhere to be alone. When they found out we were going to Utah they still offered to come down! What amazing families we have!
Later that day we decided that we needed to go to the Temple and our wonderful friends Jim and Vanessa watched Belle while we went. After our session Monkey asked me how I felt.. I felt just so uneasy and scared I just didn’t feel at peace. I knew that everything would be fine and I knew deep down that Heavenly Father knew what was going to happen and no matter what would happen everything would be ok. I knew!!! Heavenly Father knows! But for some reason I could not get the thoughts of possibly not having my baby boy! Like I was a complete wreck… I got home from the Temple and just laid on the couch and cried. I could not get control on myself. I asked Monkey for a blessing! I am so glad I did… what an amazing blessing. I won't go into it but it said what I needed to hear. Complete peace came over me and I feel so good. I am absolutely ok now. I just know my baby will be here! I am so grateful for the Priesthood. And I am even more grateful that Heavenly Father let us have the Priesthood! I am so ready for my appointment on Monday cause it will only be good news…. It would be so wonderful if everyone could keep us in there prayers this weekend!
This last Thursday October 8, 2009 my doctor called and asked if I could go somewhere quiet where I could talk. I went into my room and she said, “well we got your blood work back … and you are positive for the disease called Edwards Disease which is also known has Trisomy 18. So the doctor told me not to worry cause she didn’t want me to freak out before I knew if our baby really had this disorder. She told me that I had to go to Boise to get a special ultrasound to check our baby. I tried not to cry on the phone but tears were just pouring down my face. I was just hoping that this disorder had nothing to do with death…which I found out a few minutes later that my worse nightmare might could totally happen.
I had no idea what this disease was so I looked it up on the internet and this is what I found… Trisomy 18 is a condition which is caused by a chromosomal defect. It occurs in about 1 out of every 3000 live births. The numbers increase significantly when early pregnancy losses are factored in that occur in the 2nd and 3rd trimesters of pregnancy. Unlike Down syndrome, which also is caused by a chromosomal defect, the developmental issues caused by Trisomy 18 are associated with medical complications that are more potentially life-threatening in the early months and years of life. 50% of babies who are carried to term will be stillborn, with baby boys having higher stillbirth rate than baby girls. At birth, intensive care admissions in Neonatal units are most common for infants with Trisomy 18. Again, baby boys will experience higher mortality rates in this neonatal period than baby girls, although those with higher birth weights do better across all categories. Some children will be able to be discharged from the hospital with home nursing support for their families. And although less than 10 percent survive to their first birthdays.
I honestly should not have read that cause I lost all control… Which I shouldn’t have, because I had no idea if my baby had it or not. So I freaked for a while and finally called my mom and told her. I decided that I needed to hear my moms voice. It helped a lot but after I spoke with her I was not able to speak to anyone. My wonderful family all called me minutes later and I couldn’t speak to anyone, all I could think about I that I might not have my little boy…. I couldn’t stay home because I was going crazy… so me and my denial I decided to go buy everything our baby needed when he was born. I bought pj’s, blankets, clothes, onesies, socks, etc. I am so grateful for Monkey he was crying because of the whole situation and completely freaked out cause I couldn’t control myself but he remind so patient and loving! I couldn’t have gotten through that night without him.
So we went to bed that night and I still couldn’t find peace… I fell asleep finally with the biggest headache. But woke up not crying as hard. The first thing that morning my doctor called again we were trying to set up an appointment to go to Boise. I told her I had to go to Utah on Sunday through Monday (Monkey had an interview with California’s Optometry school on Monday) and right away she called the office in Boise and got a doctor to go to Salt Lake Monday to do my appointment at 1:00pm. How blessed am I and relieved I was. But still I was scared out of my mind and to top it off Monkey wouldn’t be with me. My Mom called and told me that my dad and her were coming to Utah to be with me at my appointment. I can’t tell you how happy I felt when she told me that! Monkey’s family was just as wonderful they waned to go to Boise to be with us ad they wanted to buy us a hotel room so we could go somewhere to be alone. When they found out we were going to Utah they still offered to come down! What amazing families we have!
Later that day we decided that we needed to go to the Temple and our wonderful friends Jim and Vanessa watched Belle while we went. After our session Monkey asked me how I felt.. I felt just so uneasy and scared I just didn’t feel at peace. I knew that everything would be fine and I knew deep down that Heavenly Father knew what was going to happen and no matter what would happen everything would be ok. I knew!!! Heavenly Father knows! But for some reason I could not get the thoughts of possibly not having my baby boy! Like I was a complete wreck… I got home from the Temple and just laid on the couch and cried. I could not get control on myself. I asked Monkey for a blessing! I am so glad I did… what an amazing blessing. I won't go into it but it said what I needed to hear. Complete peace came over me and I feel so good. I am absolutely ok now. I just know my baby will be here! I am so grateful for the Priesthood. And I am even more grateful that Heavenly Father let us have the Priesthood! I am so ready for my appointment on Monday cause it will only be good news…. It would be so wonderful if everyone could keep us in there prayers this weekend!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Baby Girl Mullins!!!
Oh my baby is getting so big! It is so weird to think that in a month she will be 1 year old!!! I feel like balling! I know I am sensitive but it goes so fast!
I am so proud of her though because about a month ago we took her binky away and I don't think she even remembers that she had it!!! She seriously is happy and smiling all the time... well except when I have to put her in her crib cause she is throwing a fit!!!! hahaha but other wise very happy!
I couldn't believe that it already snowed in the Burg! I am so happy it wasn't bad but it was freezing!!! Belle for sure got wrapped up!!!! We went outside and she got to see snow! she was like making all these talking mumbling noisey like she was trying to talk to the snow!!! hahaha it was hilarious!!!
Belle is growing out of all her pajamas so they are so short on her! So I have to put leggings on her to keep her legs warm!!! hahaha I am so excited to see her with her little brother!!! That will be interesting!!Family time!
We went around Rexburg and found some sweet places!!! We had fun and later that night we came home and out of no where Monkey goes Mamie pick a number... So I said 23 and he left and came back with ice cream and a ton of treats to make our own cold stone... then he pulled out a movie that he got from clean flicks in the 1$ bin and he choose the 23rd movie and we watched it!!!! hahahah it was a show about India! We made a spegetti dinner and I had a blast!!! Good day!!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
A BOY!!!!
WE ARE HAVING A BOY!!!!!! after we found out we went shopping!!!!! I am so excited for this little guy to come!!!! We need more boy in are Pink house!!!! We are just so thrilled!!!!Friday, October 2, 2009
Dance baby Dance!!!
Belle laughing at my cousin Cardons CD!!!
hahahaha! I don't know but this cracks me up!!!!!
OH Sweet Caroline!!!! Or Sweet Belle!
I love watching her dance!! I still haven't gotten her going at it like she normally does... everytime I pull out the camera it's like she gets a bit camera shy!! Believe it or not!
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