August 29, 2012
I am sitting here and I don't know what to do.... Belle seriously out of no where started coughing then all of a sudden started struggling to breathe. She started crying a gasping for air at the same time, I rushed and gave her a nebulizer treatment and her breathing got worse. She hardly could breathe... Monkey threw clothes on and is at the ER with her right now. I am dying that I am not with her. As Monkey was carrying her out the door I just reached for her... I want to be with her so bad. Don't ask me why I am writing- I seriously don't know what to do. I don't know what I am doing wrong. I can not keep my family healthy. My poor Belle. I honestly have not been so scared before. I feel like asking why is this happening but I know we have to go through trials like this... So I am just pleading that we well get through this. I don't know how many more times I can watch my children go through this. I know I should be grateful, this could be a lot worse and other people have had and have it way worse. Hearing her gasp for air, I feel so helpless. How do I do this? I feel like I am expected to know how to be a mother and take perfect care of my kids but yet I have no clue what I am doing. Maybe there is something in our home making her sick... I will just go clean and maybe that will help get rid of something....
August 30, 2012
Well after the drama and tears of every family member last night, today Belle is doing so much better. She is in bed obviously but she can breathe thank heavens. Monkey and Belle got home around 1:30 am I was sitting in Belle's room looking out her window waiting for them to pull up. When they finally got home Belle came up the stairs... she was dressed in a little light green long hospital gown. I guess she threw up everywhere, including all over Monkey. She was holding stickers and a teddy bear which she named Tree Top. Her sweet face looked so exhausted. She was so pale with dark circles under her eyes. I just knelt down and she came straight to me and we just hugged. "I am okay Mama..." she said so softly in my ear. Of course I cried and we sat in her bed for awhile. We are all so grateful and especially grateful for priesthood blessings. Belle ended up just having a severe episode of the croup. She will be back to her crazy self hopefully in no time.
2 comments:
Oh my word. That is terrifying! We are so relieved that she is okay. You are one saint of a mother! I have no idea ow I would handle any of these challenges you have faced. You are amazing. Keep loving those little ones- that is the most important thing you can do.
I am so sorry to hear that. I hope that she starts to feel better and that you guys are doing well. Miss you all!
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